These 2 poems should be shared with all humans made in the Image of God; who have hidden or damaged emotions that are buried in a Sea of Pain. 

I went to a psychologist when I was 50.  I said to the counselor that I think there is someone my age in my past when I was in foster care from age 3 to 7 that I would like to now meet again. Then I said, the only thing worse that never being able to see them again, is if they are dead. I started crying profusely.  

I had suppressed those subconscious memories of a pretty, little girl for 40+ years.  For most of my life, I was unaware of her existence, and I would not let anyone take her place.   

Poem:

To Love Again  

It is plain to see

She is human like me

Seeing you in the coffin not able to smile and play

I no longer remember a happy day

Her families heartbroken it’s easy to tell

All we know is that it hurts like hell

I loved you so much and I can’t help but cry

For all I remember is a bad goodbye

She was so warm loving and kind

I can’t help but feel that I am emotionally blind

No longer do I see all of God’s beauty around me

Only able to focus on the ugly I see

She wasn’t perfect I know quite well

God gave us each other I am happy to tell

Our hearts are melted together and it’s easy to see why

Our love will never die

You had no control over when you would go

But this I know you loved me so

May I dream about you and me

And how things used to be

For you are special to me

And always will be

O God how can I love like that again

To not do so would be a sin

Original Copyright ©1997 Arthur Trafford

Poem:

To Remember the Good and the Bad

 

Pain is so real and it’s easy to see

It all happens to you and me

I know we are born to die

But at such a young age I don’t understand why

The pain is so great and my joy is so small

I long to see her but I don’t know where to call

She was so pretty and I don’t mean to boast

Of all other boys she loved me the most

Her hair was so long and I couldn’t help but stare

For I loved to get lost in her pretty blond hair

We were so young and didn’t understand

God would allow a change that we had not planned

She lives in my heart I am happy to say

Always there no matter what I think or pray

I love you and you love me

That’s the way it should be

I am so tired of hiding from you

Not really sure what I should do

Lord Emmanuel help me I pray

For I long to love her again someday

As I look back to those days

I stop and take the time to give praise

Thank you, God, for giving to me

A little girl so special you see

I need to remember the good and the bad

This is how I will overcome feeling so sad

Original Copyright ©1997 Arthur Trafford

Death of a loved one or friend

All of us will miss someone!  We should never forget the pain and the pleasure of loving and being loved!  Humans tend to be fearful to take chances on loving again, and we selectively block-out the naked truth that can give us emotional balance and healing in remembering the good and bad in our past, present or future relationships.

Some parts of these two poems are very melancholy. If your past or present memories are still buried in a sea of pain, then contact a counselor, friend or loved one and deal with your issues.

I have gotten to the point where none of these verses makes me cry, simply because I confronted my past and dealt with it.